was it all in my head?

i honestly don't know what to make of us.
we've been together for all these years
but we've never really made anything of it.
you've been my friend for so long
and sometimes you feel like something more.
it's like there's tension in the air between us sometimes.
i love what we already have
but is it enough to risk more?

i'm scared that it's all in my head.
sometimes when we touch a certain way.
i feel something and get giddy.
sometimes when we just talk
everything fades and nothing else seems to matter. like it's just us.
sometimes when i'm sad or worried
you just seem to make everything ok with a few words or the smallest gesture.
and the best part is. you'd drop everything and come running.

is it all in my head?
is it just me?
what do i make of it?

i was never the one to do anything about my feelings.
if this is even real feelings.
i never say anything or confess it.
probably because i can't bear the rejection. denial.
i believe a little bit in fate.
if it's meant to be. we'll be. when you come to realise it too.
and pursue me. i'll answer.

so for now. i'll wait to see if you make anything of it. that'll be my sign.
i'll hide what this is for now..

but i'm actually hoping a little honestly. please realise. what i just realised.


love from abbey.