the friendzone.

honestly. i'm quite sick of guys complaining to me.
"omg i hate the friendzone""i just got friendzoned" blah blah crap
yeah well guess what?
i can't say this for all girls but..
being in the 'friendzone' actually makes you that one more step closer to being her boyfriend.
it's about having a foundation of friendship that can actually make the relationship last longer.
and if you can't be patient and wait for her to realise how great you guys are together for more? well then you don't deserve her in the first place.
i'm not saying that you have to be her friend for a long time first in order to make the dating relationship work. other circumstances people meet and date straight away or whatever. it depends.

anyway.. what i'm saying is. girls that put up that 'friendzone' are usually just scared and are protecting themselves. it makes it easier for us girls.
in the 'friendzone' it gives us a chance to trust you, be comfortable around you and what not.. without us worrying about being hurt.

that's just what i think anyway.


love from abbey.

signs.

i'm not usually one of those people that look into things
like dreams or small gestures.
but lately i have been receiving really vivid dreams
and signs denying me to do certain things
which have physically stopped me doing something
like it's crossing my path.
for instance, i'd try and make a call, having full bars of reception, i'd be denied.
and it's crazy and just as amazing at the same time.
it's these small things i guess that are probably protecting me from what could possibly happen.
but yeah i'm probably actually annoyed a little.
that i'm being denied something that i desire personally.
but i'm not really living for myself these days anymore.
i will listen and obey you God. thank you for putting me to the test.
thank you for already giving me what i desire more, in due time.


love from abbey.

i swear.

seriously to the guys that pretend.
pretend that they don't have any feelings.
deny that they don't.
live like they don't.
because it's convenient not too.
and that "it's better this way"
yes some things are best left unsaid.
but if it's worth more then go out and get there!
there's nothing worse than letting it slip between your fingers.
thinking what if or regretting it. then living with it.
man the crap up. there's no need to hide it.
put your pride away.
and go get what you want.
fight until you definitely know you can't anymore.
don't just take the easy way out.

ahhh you frustrate me -_-


love from abbey.

to a dear friend.

when i was dating my first true love he had a best friend named michael tang.
he treated me like a sister and was one of the best people i know.

but now that we've broken up.
it's hard to even be friends or 'hang' with all my old friends anymore. in that circle of friends anyway.
there's nothing i can do about it. without hurting.
we don't talk anymore.
but i miss them dearly. and still care for them a lot.
and i think about all of them often.

recently. michael tang was in a car accident.
and when i found out. as much as i wanted to run to his side and check.
the circumstances of everything took over.
i couldn't. it wasn't my place anymore.
i just sat there in my room and cried my eyes out and prayed.

all i can do is send the following message:

hey michael (:
don't know when you'll get this but doesn't matter haha

but well i can see you're doing heaps well!! so awesome to see you up and smiling!! :D
i just wanted you to know
despite the fact the we're not as close anymore given some circumstances
i still care and have been thinking and keeping you in my prayers
i hope you get well soon!!

still love you like my brother haha (: <3
hope i'll bump into you sometime soon again

love from abbey

p.s i say this with complete sincerity.

cheers to a good night.

last night has got to be one of the best nights i've had in a long time (:
clubbing at the ivy for the first time with my bunch of my single girls!
we made up a couple characters and different names we used to introduce ourselves to people. LOL!
be like totally new people for one night (: haha!
and i have to admit. it was so much fun!
my name was freaking tiffany? and my character was being like some pretentious bish haha!
used that name and met heaps of different people (:
i loved that it wasn't just some asian club. that it was so multicultural and friendly!
actually bumped into a couple of people i was acquainted to and already knew so that was fun chilling with them. (:
the music was seriously good. once it hit 12am though lol. was so dead at the start -_-
but the highlight has got to be how amazingly hot most of the guys were D: HAHA!
met italian, french, german, austrian, etc. guys haha!
ahhhh such a good scene and night.

dear laurence or whatever your name was lol
you are so hot. it should be illegal.
i've never met anyone like you.
you make me want to find more austrian guys haha!
thank you for your time and company (;
too bad you're not even staying in this country ):
HAHA!


love from abbey.

was it all in my head?

i honestly don't know what to make of us.
we've been together for all these years
but we've never really made anything of it.
you've been my friend for so long
and sometimes you feel like something more.
it's like there's tension in the air between us sometimes.
i love what we already have
but is it enough to risk more?

i'm scared that it's all in my head.
sometimes when we touch a certain way.
i feel something and get giddy.
sometimes when we just talk
everything fades and nothing else seems to matter. like it's just us.
sometimes when i'm sad or worried
you just seem to make everything ok with a few words or the smallest gesture.
and the best part is. you'd drop everything and come running.

is it all in my head?
is it just me?
what do i make of it?

i was never the one to do anything about my feelings.
if this is even real feelings.
i never say anything or confess it.
probably because i can't bear the rejection. denial.
i believe a little bit in fate.
if it's meant to be. we'll be. when you come to realise it too.
and pursue me. i'll answer.

so for now. i'll wait to see if you make anything of it. that'll be my sign.
i'll hide what this is for now..

but i'm actually hoping a little honestly. please realise. what i just realised.


love from abbey.

he he he. (:

Michael Kors Runway 40mm Silver Watch

i've always had a thing for watches.

i have about 10 different watches

all different styles and brands from DKNY, Swatch, Casio, etc etc.

most of them were gifts from my Dad whose also a watch fanatic (probably where i got this addiction from /: ) and from my best friends who just get me (:

but this one, is one of my first that i've bought for myself from my own blood and sweat. (:

i don't particularly have the highest paying job and i hold a casual position while i study.

but i always still feel blessed. that i am able to survive for myself still.

i pay my own bills, i buy own electronics and clothes, i pay for my own food..

stuff like this, even though it's small. i do it for myself.

thank you God. for guiding me and always blessing me.

love from abbey.