my genuine happy smile + being caught being a fatass.
25/10/12
spontaneous day at Bondi beach with lovely uni people.
the weather, the sun, the cool waves hitting your skin.
bliss.
was awesome just chilling after the stress i've been living the week before.
all the long assessments being due, partying till the a.m's and not to mention working a lot.
but now.. i'm pretty much free.
just have to study for finals, and i'm done! 3 months off for holidays!
i'd normally be planning what i want to do in my head in that time
but lately i live in the now. the day. today.
but i do have a list of things i want to do and see
but seriously.
'life happens when you're too busy making plans'
i do what i want. i do what i feel like. anytime i want.
and it's been freaking amazing.
completely poured my eyes out.
but it's so true.
so freaking true.
i've had - what i loved. when i loved.
does that mean i have three more to go?
people keep pushing me.
"abbey, we'd be compatible" .. "abbey, go for that guy. you can do it"
what the hell does that even mean?
just because i can. doesn't mean i will?
i'm not looking for someone to fill the void of being my boyfriend.
i'm not looking for someone just so i won't be alone.
i'm not looking to just date around for the fun of it.
i'm not looking to play games anymore.
i'm done.
i've had my heart broken so badly already and i don't plan on going back there again.
and just when i've picked up the pieces too.
i'm looking for the last. as cheesy as that sounded
it's true.
Love bears up under anything and everything that comes, is ever ready to believe the best of every person, its hopes are fadeless under all circumstances, and it endures everything - without weakening.
1 Corinthians 13:7
The God-kind of love bears up under anything and everything that comes. It endures everything without weakening. It is determined not to give up even on the hardest case. The hard-core individual who persists in being rebellious can eventually be melted by love.
It is hard to keep showing love to someone who never seems to appreciate it or even respond to it. It is difficult to keep showing love to those individuals who take from us all we are willing to give, but who never give anything back.
We are not responsible for how others act, only for how we act. We have experience the love of God by His mercy, and now He commands us to show that same kind of love to the world. Our reward does not come from man, but from God. Even when our good deeds seem to go unnoticed, God notices and promises to reward us openly for them. Your Father who sees in secret will reward openly.
It isn't always easy to love, but God commands it. Love the unlovable in your life today.
People are often unreasonable, illogical and self-centred; Forgive them anyway.
If you are kind, people may accuse you of being selfish and have ulterior motives; Be kind anyway.
If you are successful, you will win some false friends and some true enemies; Succeed anyway.
If you are honest and frank, people may cheat you; Be honest and frank anyway.
What you spend years building, someone could destroy overnight; Build anyway.
If you find serenity and happiness, they may be jealous; Be happy anyway.
The good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow; Do good anyway.
Give the world the best you have, and it may not be enough; Give the world the best you've got anyway.
You see, in the final analysis, it is between you and God; It was never between you and them anyway.
- Mother Teresa
thank you.
thank you for everything.
thank you for blessing me with all that i have been given right now.
thank you for making me stronger when i thought i was weak.
thank you for not giving up on me when i wanted to give up.
thank you for showing me life when i thought i couldn't do it anymore.
thank you for healing me and picking up the pieces of my broken heart.
thank you for saving me.
i don't know where i'd be.
i was lost and broken.
i was undeserving and unworthy.
yet you found me.
you picked me up for your very own.
and you held me
kept my emotions intact
and comforted me.
like a piece of clay
you put me through fire and pain
to mould me and create the person i am now.
i am amazed by you and amazed by what you've done to me.
you have promised to turn every tear i've cried into joy.
and i can't wait to see what you have in store for me.
i know that it can't even compare to the pain i felt.
and it will be amazing.
Do not be discouraged, My Beloved; pain is a part of life.
But i promise you that i will turn every tear you've cried into joy,
and i will use your deep pain for a divine purpose.
Don't try to hide your hurts from Me.
I know everything about you.
You are Mine, My Beloved.
I'm the only one who can handle your heart and restore you to health and wholeness again.
I, too, have felt great pain, rejection, and anger. But we can go through every trial together.
Hand in hand i will lead you back to My place of peace and joy after the storm.
The sun will rise for you again, and your heart will be healed.
I promise you, My Daughter, that when you go through deep waters of great trouble, i will be with you. When you go through rivers of difficulty you will not drown.
When you walk through the fire of oppression you will not be burned.
'faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see.'
it's easier said than done right?
we're only human.
there can be doubts and negative thoughts that can cloud our faith
but why?
what is faith that is so pure? faith that is so certain?
it's already knowing that it has been done and will be done.
like tomorrow. you know that the sun will rise definitely.
even though you haven't seen it yet. you know it will.
it's the same thing.
putting faith in God completely for things that seem impossible become possible.
believing that He will make the sun rise for you.
that is pure faith.
trust steadily and hope unswervingly in Him.
and he will give you your heart's desire.
