signs.

i'm not usually one of those people that look into things
like dreams or small gestures.
but lately i have been receiving really vivid dreams
and signs denying me to do certain things
which have physically stopped me doing something
like it's crossing my path.
for instance, i'd try and make a call, having full bars of reception, i'd be denied.
and it's crazy and just as amazing at the same time.
it's these small things i guess that are probably protecting me from what could possibly happen.
but yeah i'm probably actually annoyed a little.
that i'm being denied something that i desire personally.
but i'm not really living for myself these days anymore.
i will listen and obey you God. thank you for putting me to the test.
thank you for already giving me what i desire more, in due time.


love from abbey.

i swear.

seriously to the guys that pretend.
pretend that they don't have any feelings.
deny that they don't.
live like they don't.
because it's convenient not too.
and that "it's better this way"
yes some things are best left unsaid.
but if it's worth more then go out and get there!
there's nothing worse than letting it slip between your fingers.
thinking what if or regretting it. then living with it.
man the crap up. there's no need to hide it.
put your pride away.
and go get what you want.
fight until you definitely know you can't anymore.
don't just take the easy way out.

ahhh you frustrate me -_-


love from abbey.

to a dear friend.

when i was dating my first true love he had a best friend named michael tang.
he treated me like a sister and was one of the best people i know.

but now that we've broken up.
it's hard to even be friends or 'hang' with all my old friends anymore. in that circle of friends anyway.
there's nothing i can do about it. without hurting.
we don't talk anymore.
but i miss them dearly. and still care for them a lot.
and i think about all of them often.

recently. michael tang was in a car accident.
and when i found out. as much as i wanted to run to his side and check.
the circumstances of everything took over.
i couldn't. it wasn't my place anymore.
i just sat there in my room and cried my eyes out and prayed.

all i can do is send the following message:

hey michael (:
don't know when you'll get this but doesn't matter haha

but well i can see you're doing heaps well!! so awesome to see you up and smiling!! :D
i just wanted you to know
despite the fact the we're not as close anymore given some circumstances
i still care and have been thinking and keeping you in my prayers
i hope you get well soon!!

still love you like my brother haha (: <3
hope i'll bump into you sometime soon again

love from abbey

p.s i say this with complete sincerity.

cheers to a good night.

last night has got to be one of the best nights i've had in a long time (:
clubbing at the ivy for the first time with my bunch of my single girls!
we made up a couple characters and different names we used to introduce ourselves to people. LOL!
be like totally new people for one night (: haha!
and i have to admit. it was so much fun!
my name was freaking tiffany? and my character was being like some pretentious bish haha!
used that name and met heaps of different people (:
i loved that it wasn't just some asian club. that it was so multicultural and friendly!
actually bumped into a couple of people i was acquainted to and already knew so that was fun chilling with them. (:
the music was seriously good. once it hit 12am though lol. was so dead at the start -_-
but the highlight has got to be how amazingly hot most of the guys were D: HAHA!
met italian, french, german, austrian, etc. guys haha!
ahhhh such a good scene and night.

dear laurence or whatever your name was lol
you are so hot. it should be illegal.
i've never met anyone like you.
you make me want to find more austrian guys haha!
thank you for your time and company (;
too bad you're not even staying in this country ):
HAHA!


love from abbey.

was it all in my head?

i honestly don't know what to make of us.
we've been together for all these years
but we've never really made anything of it.
you've been my friend for so long
and sometimes you feel like something more.
it's like there's tension in the air between us sometimes.
i love what we already have
but is it enough to risk more?

i'm scared that it's all in my head.
sometimes when we touch a certain way.
i feel something and get giddy.
sometimes when we just talk
everything fades and nothing else seems to matter. like it's just us.
sometimes when i'm sad or worried
you just seem to make everything ok with a few words or the smallest gesture.
and the best part is. you'd drop everything and come running.

is it all in my head?
is it just me?
what do i make of it?

i was never the one to do anything about my feelings.
if this is even real feelings.
i never say anything or confess it.
probably because i can't bear the rejection. denial.
i believe a little bit in fate.
if it's meant to be. we'll be. when you come to realise it too.
and pursue me. i'll answer.

so for now. i'll wait to see if you make anything of it. that'll be my sign.
i'll hide what this is for now..

but i'm actually hoping a little honestly. please realise. what i just realised.


love from abbey.

he he he. (:

Michael Kors Runway 40mm Silver Watch

i've always had a thing for watches.

i have about 10 different watches

all different styles and brands from DKNY, Swatch, Casio, etc etc.

most of them were gifts from my Dad whose also a watch fanatic (probably where i got this addiction from /: ) and from my best friends who just get me (:

but this one, is one of my first that i've bought for myself from my own blood and sweat. (:

i don't particularly have the highest paying job and i hold a casual position while i study.

but i always still feel blessed. that i am able to survive for myself still.

i pay my own bills, i buy own electronics and clothes, i pay for my own food..

stuff like this, even though it's small. i do it for myself.

thank you God. for guiding me and always blessing me.

love from abbey.

hello beach.

my genuine happy smile + being caught being a fatass.

25/10/12

spontaneous day at Bondi beach with lovely uni people.
the weather, the sun, the cool waves hitting your skin.
bliss.

was awesome just chilling after the stress i've been living the week before.
all the long assessments being due, partying till the a.m's and not to mention working a lot.
but now.. i'm pretty much free.
just have to study for finals, and i'm done! 3 months off for holidays!

i'd normally be planning what i want to do in my head in that time
but lately i live in the now. the day. today.
but i do have a list of things i want to do and see
but seriously.
'life happens when you're too busy making plans'
i do what i want. i do what i feel like. anytime i want.
and it's been freaking amazing.


love from abbey.

the last.

the last - wongfu.

completely poured my eyes out.
but it's so true.
so freaking true.

i've had - what i loved. when i loved.
does that mean i have three more to go?

people keep pushing me.
"abbey, we'd be compatible" .. "abbey, go for that guy. you can do it"
what the hell does that even mean?
just because i can. doesn't mean i will?

i'm not looking for someone to fill the void of being my boyfriend.
i'm not looking for someone just so i won't be alone.
i'm not looking to just date around for the fun of it.
i'm not looking to play games anymore.
i'm done.

i've had my heart broken so badly already and i don't plan on going back there again.
and just when i've picked up the pieces too.

i'm looking for the last.
as cheesy as that sounded
it's true.


love from abbey.

from something i hate...

into something i love..

i was actually pretty scared. 

going to the places full of memories.

experiencing things again.. that was full of memories.

i'll admit.

it hurt a little.

but it didn't compare to the joy i felt reliving that moment again.

and replacing it with new and better memories.

i can look back on it.

and it wouldn't be.

that heartbreaking sob story.

but it would be

just.. 

wow i remember that amazing time that.. 

those memories i was so scared of facing.

the memories i was trying so hard to avoid and remember again.

changed completely. 

over written into new perfect and pure memories.

turning

from something i hated. 

into something that i can i love again.

love from abbey.

#love

Love bears up under anything and everything that comes, is ever ready to believe the best of every person, its hopes are fadeless under all circumstances, and it endures everything - without weakening.
1 Corinthians 13:7

The God-kind of love bears up under anything and everything that comes. It endures everything without weakening. It is determined not to give up even on the hardest case. The hard-core individual who persists in being rebellious can eventually be melted by love.
It is hard to keep showing love to someone who never seems to appreciate it or even respond to it. It is difficult to keep showing love to those individuals who take from us all we are willing to give, but who never give anything back.
We are not responsible for how others act, only for how we act. We have experience the love of God by His mercy, and now He commands us to show that same kind of love to the world. Our reward does not come from man, but from God. Even when our good deeds seem to go unnoticed, God notices and promises to reward us openly for them. Your Father who sees in secret will reward openly.

It isn't always easy to love, but God commands it. Love the unlovable in your life today.


L.O.L devotions by Joyce Meyer

my anthem.

Miss A - I don't need a man.

This is for all the independent ladies

Oh oh oh, oh oh oh

Let’s go

I can live well without a man

So if you’re not confident, don’t come to me

I don’t sell myself easily because

I don’t need a man I don’t need a man (What?)

I don’t need a man I don’t need a man (Really?)

I don’t need a man I don’t need a man (For real?)

I don’t need a man I don’t need a man

I can live well without a man

I pay my rent with my money

I buy my own food, I buy my own clothes

It may not be enough but I know how to be satisfied

That is why I love myself (hey)

I don’t want to spend my parent’s allowance as my own

I’m too old for that

Isn’t it a given to not be burdensome to them?

That is why I am proud of myself (hey)

Boy don’t say

“I’ll take care of you, I’ll cherish you” no no

Boy don’t play

If you’re not gonna come with a serious mind

I can live well without a man

So if you’re not confident, don’t come to me

I don’t sell myself easily because

I don’t need a man I don’t need a man (What?)

I don’t need a man I don’t need a man (Really?)

I don’t need a man I don’t need a man (For real?)

I don’t need a man I don’t need a man

I can live well without a man

Being cocky won’t work with me

I don’t know about anywhere else

I may not be as well off as you but

I overflow with confidence

That’s why I love myself (hey)

I want to take care of myself

The other girls may have rich parents or a rich boyfriend

And live comfortably but I’m not interested in that

That is why I am proud of myself (hey)

Boy don’t say

“I am your future, trust and lean on me” no no

Boy don’t play

If you’re not gonna respect me

I can live well without a man

So if you’re not confident, don’t come to me

I don’t sell myself easily because

I don’t need a man I don’t need a man (What?)

I don’t need a man I don’t need a man (Really?)

I don’t need a man I don’t need a man (For real?)

I don’t need a man I don’t need a man

I can live well without a man

I wake up early every morning

And I’m busy all day

I don’t even eat a proper meal

But I do this because I like it

The money may be little but it’s from my own sweat

This isn’t a ring that a boyfriend bought me

My car, my clothes – I bought it all on my own

I bought them after putting money into savings, after giving allowance to my parents

If you trust men, what will you do when they leave you?

Are you jealous of me?

If you’re jealous, you lose

I can live well without a man

So if you’re not confident, don’t come to me

I don’t sell myself easily because

I don’t need a man I don’t need a man (What?)

I don’t need a man I don’t need a man (Really?)

I don’t need a man I don’t need a man (For real?)

I don’t need a man I don’t need a man

I can live well without a man

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..anyway.

People are often unreasonable, illogical and self-centred; Forgive them anyway.
If you are kind, people may accuse you of being selfish and have ulterior motives; Be kind anyway.
If you are successful, you will win some false friends and some true enemies; Succeed anyway.
If you are honest and frank, people may cheat you; Be honest and frank anyway.
What you spend years building, someone could destroy overnight; Build anyway.
If you find serenity and happiness, they may be jealous; Be happy anyway.
The good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow; Do good anyway.
Give the world the best you have, and it may not be enough; Give the world the best you've got anyway.
You see, in the final analysis, it is between you and God; It was never between you and them anyway.
- Mother Teresa

letter.

Dear God

thank you.
thank you for everything.
thank you for blessing me with all that i have been given right now.
thank you for making me stronger when i thought i was weak.
thank you for not giving up on me when i wanted to give up.
thank you for showing me life when i thought i couldn't do it anymore.
thank you for healing me and picking up the pieces of my broken heart.
thank you for saving me.

i don't know where i'd be.
i was lost and broken.
i was undeserving and unworthy.
yet you found me.
you picked me up for your very own.
and you held me
kept my emotions intact
and comforted me.

like a piece of clay
you put me through fire and pain
to mould me and create the person i am now.
i am amazed by you and amazed by what you've done to me.

you have promised to turn every tear i've cried into joy.
and i can't wait to see what you have in store for me.
i know that it can't even compare to the pain i felt.
and it will be amazing.

thank you God.


love from abbey.

a letter to me.

To my Daughter Abigail

Do not be discouraged, My Beloved; pain is a part of life.
But i promise you that i will turn every tear you've cried into joy,
and i will use your deep pain for a divine purpose.
Don't try to hide your hurts from Me.
I know everything about you.
You are Mine, My Beloved.
I'm the only one who can handle your heart and restore you to health and wholeness again.
I, too, have felt great pain, rejection, and anger. But we can go through every trial together.
Hand in hand i will lead you back to My place of peace and joy after the storm.
The sun will rise for you again, and your heart will be healed.
I promise you, My Daughter, that when you go through deep waters of great trouble, i will be with you. When you go through rivers of difficulty you will not drown.
When you walk through the fire of oppression you will not be burned.


Love from Jesus.


credit unknown. text image.

faith

'faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see.'

it's easier said than done right?
we're only human.
there can be doubts and negative thoughts that can cloud our faith
but why?

what is faith that is so pure? faith that is so certain?
it's already knowing that it has been done and will be done.
like tomorrow. you know that the sun will rise definitely.
even though you haven't seen it yet. you know it will.
it's the same thing.
putting faith in God completely for things that seem impossible become possible.
believing that He will make the sun rise for you.
that is pure faith.

trust steadily and hope unswervingly in Him.
and he will give you your heart's desire.


love from abbey.

my dumb grin

don't know why. but today in particular.

i'm feeling very happy. i have been carrying this dumb grin on my face all day.

just chilling with real friends today without a care in the world.

i am truly blessed.

some people think that having fun and being happy

involves getting drunk, getting high, and all those other 'negative' things.

that make them forget for awhile or even feel better for a short time.

but all that stuff don't last forever.

a time of realisation and consequences will come soon.

honestly, if there is no happiness without relying on those things, then i'm sorry but

what is life then? 

that is happiness based on things that don't even last forever. 

search, hold on, keep, what can make you happy without those 'add-ons'

love from abbey. 

#friendship

a friend would visit you in prison, but a true friend would crash into the wall of your cell and say "get in." … LOL

i don't have very many friends, people say i do, but i really don't.
to me there's a difference from being my friend and being a friend cause they 'know me'

but seriously, what are my friends?
they just get me.
every single part of me.
we're on like this same wave length of thoughts.
they know what makes me laugh and what makes me cry.
what i like and what i don't like.
protective of me but still prays and supports every decision i make even though they don't agree.
they do things for me without even expecting anything in return.
they love me unconditionally and accept me the way i am.
..and what i love the most is that they're closer than ever when my whole world crashes down and everyone seems to walk out, they come running into my life more than ever.
that is what a true friend is to me.

that's what i believe to be true friendship and what everyone should aim to find.

thank you for being in my life till now.
trust me when i say i appreciate you.
i do not take you for granted.
i love you.
and i will try my best to be just as good of a friend.
you know who you are.


lots of love from abbey.

are you serious?

are we dating for fun, or is it serious?

him: 
"we're going closer in friendship, and i need to be up front about my motives. with your parents' permission, i want to explore the possibility of marriage. i'm not interested in playing the game of being boyfriend and girlfriend. i'm ready to be tested by you, your family, and those who are responsible for you.. my desire is to win your heart."

yeah this is serious. dating isn't some game. a girl's heart is no joke. likewise even a guy's
it's time to "get serious, or get lost"
it's simple isn't it?
seriously, don't mess please.
there's is only consequences and pain on the end of that road.
you will reap what you sow.


love from abbey.

on repeat.

It's gonna burn for me to say this
But it's coming from my heart
It's been a long time coming
But we done been fell apart
Really wanna work this out
But I don't think ya gonna change ya
I do but you don't
Think it's best we go our separate ways
Tell me why I should stay in this relationship
When I'm hurting baby, I ain't happy baby
Plus there's so many other things I gotta deal with
I think that you should let it burn

When your feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to
But you know gotta let it go cause the party ain't jumpin' like it used to
Even though this might bruise you
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

Deep down you know it's best for yourself but you
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it's over
You know that it was through
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

Burn - Usher

busy

life just got busy again.

and you'd think mine wasn't when i'm single. but it is.

my uni, work and social life has filled up my calendar that i need a whole day to organise it..

i need to study and do assignments. do my night shifts. and organise outings at the right time for everyone, plus hanging out with some old friends i haven't had a chance to in a long long while..

everything is falling into place again (:

but the key thing for me is organise time for myself everyday with God.

"but seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added onto you." Matthew 6:33

putting God first before all my tasks will put everything after it in place.

life can get pretty busy, that people tend to prioritise real and worldly things and completely miss God in a day. but when you do put Him in your day, your day and other plans will run smoothly, and God will bless you more each day. that's what i believe. i can be a testimony to that.

this is another step up to growing

thank you God. 

please help me more and bless me further.

love from abbey.

expectations.

i seriously don't understand who you think you are.
and what you think i am to you.
but let me get something straight.
i am not yours.
i am not anyone's
nor do i even belong to you.

so don't expect me to follow you around
or do what you say
or have a lot of time that's meant to be just for you.
i am not your possession.

i am myself.
i do what i want, anytime i want.
i choose who i want to be with and what i want to do.
so you have no freaking say how to run my life.
so don't tell me how to or even manipulate the things around me to go your way.

don't get me wrong. i'll be here for you as a friend when you need me.
but that's all. don't expect anymore than that please.


love from abbey.

bliss.

"how you been doing?"
how am i?

i am on a cloud of bliss right now
everything is falling to place
and i'm finally feeling so content with life
not everything is how i pictured it or wanted it to be
but i'm still so freaking happy!
no matter what
i am smiling
and i mean it.

i have been grinning like an idiot a lot ^____^
grinning at the awesome weather
grinning at family
grinning at friends
grinning at randoms
grinning at everything.

all because of this resilience that i've built up.
this ability to get back up readily when i've been knocked down.
i am back. and doing life again.

so..
thank you for everything, you know who you are.


love from abbey.

all that time.

it's taken me a long while to get here.
long days and nights just crying and struggling with the pain.
all the hurt that i've kept inside to myself.
is now all gone.
i finally got here.
i lived through the trial. i survived that fire.
and just when i didn't think i could.
i came out better and stronger.
and i'm still going forward.

~

everything happens for a reason, for a purpose.
sometimes good things end, but so do the bad things.
everyone needs to go through the fire, it's how you deal with and manage through it will you come out better.
and i promise you that one day you'll wake up totally changed.
realising things you never did before.
and you will thank God for it.
just be patient and let time run its course.
it's hard at first but that good time while come by again.
that's life.


love from abbey.

the room. my dream.

By Joshua Harris. Orginally published in New Attitude Magazine. Copyright New Attitude, 1995.

In that place between wakefulness and dreams, I found myself in the room. There were no distinguishing features save for the one wall covered with small index-card files. They were like the ones in libraries that list titles by author or subject in alphabetical order. But these files, which stretched from floor to ceiling and seemingly endlessly in either direction, had very different headings. As I drew near the wall of files, the first to catch my attention was one that read "Girls I Have Liked." I opened it and began flipping through the cards. I quickly shut it, shocked to realize that I recognized the names written on each one.

And then without being told, I knew exactly where I was. This lifeless room with its small files was a crude catalog system for my life. Here were written the actions of my every moment, big and small, in a detail my memory couldn't match.

A sense of wonder and curiosity, coupled with horror, stirred within me as I began randomly opening files and exploring their content. Some brought joy and sweet memories; others a sense of shame and regret so intense that I would look over my shoulder to see if anyone was watching. A file named "Friends" was next to one marked "Friends I Have Betrayed."

The titles ranged from the mundane to the outright weird. "Books I Have Read," "Lies I Have Told," "Comfort I Have Given," "Jokes I Have Laughed At." Some were almost hilarious in their exactness: "Things I've Yelled at My Brothers." Others I couldn't laugh at: "Things I Have Done in My Anger," "Things I Have Muttered Under My Breath at My Parents." I never ceased to be surprised by the contents. Often there were many more cards than I expected. Sometimes fewer than I hoped.

I was overwhelmed by the sheer volume of the life I had lived. Could it be possible that I had the time in my 20 years to write each of these thousands or even millions of cards? But each card confirmed this truth. Each was written in my own handwriting. Each signed with my signature.

When I pulled out the file marked "Songs I Have Listened To," I realized the files grew to contain their contents. The cards were packed tightly, and yet after two or three yards, I hadn't found the end of the file. I shut it, shamed, not so much by the quality of music, but more by the vast amount of time I knew that file represented.

When I came to a file marked "Lustful Thoughts," I felt a chill run through my body. I pulled the file out only an inch, not willing to test its size, and drew out a card. I shuddered at its detailed content. I felt sick to think that such a moment had been recorded.

An almost animal rage broke on me. One thought dominated my mind: "No one must ever see these cards! No one must ever see this room! I have to destroy them!" In an insane frenzy I yanked the file out. Its size didn't matter now. I had to empty it and burn the cards. But as I took it at one end and began pounding it on the floor, I could not dislodge a single card. I became desperate and pulled out a card, only to find it as strong as steel when I tried to tear it

Defeated and utterly helpless, I returned the file to its slot. Leaning my forehead against the wall, I let out a long, self-pitying sigh. And then I saw it. The title bore "People I Have Shared the Gospel With." The handle was brighter than those around it, newer, almost unused. I pulled on its handle and a small box not more than three inches long fell into my hands. I could count the cards it contained on one hand.

And then the tears came. I began to weep. Sobs so deep that they hurt started in my stomach and shook through me. I fell on my knees and cried. I cried out of shame, from the overwhelming shame of it all. The rows of file shelves swirled in my tear-filled eyes. No one must ever, ever know of this room. I must lock it up and hide the key.

But then as I pushed away the tears, I saw Him. No, please not Him. Not here. Oh, anyone but Jesus.

I watched helplessly as He began to open the files and read the cards. I couldn't bear to watch His response. And in the moments I could bring myself to look at His face, I saw a sorrow deeper than my own. He seemed to intuitively go to the worst boxes. Why did He have to read every one?

Finally He turned and looked at me from across the room. He looked at me with pity in His eyes. But this was a pity that didn't anger me. I dropped my head, covered my face with my hands and began to cry again. He walked over and put His arm around me. He could have said so many things. But He didn't say a word. He just cried with me.

Then He got up and walked back to the wall of files. Starting at one end of the room, He took out a file and, one by one, began to sign His name over mine on each card.

"No!" I shouted rushing to Him. All I could find to say was "No, no," as I pulled the card from Him. His name shouldn't be on these cards. But there it was, written in red so rich, so dark, so alive. The name of Jesus covered mine. It was written with His blood.

He gently took the card back. He smiled a sad smile and began to sign the cards. I don't think I'll ever understand how He did it so quickly, but the next instant it seemed I heard Him close the last file and walk back to my side. He placed His hand on my shoulder and said, "It is finished."

I stood up, and He led me out of the room. There was no lock on its door. There were still cards to be written.

online shopping w/ asos.

http://www.asos.com/

why the hell did i ever think i could just 'look' at the asos online shopping site ==".. haha!

anyway.. so i only spent around $90 for all these amazing stuff!

thanks to the asos 25% off for students! i scored hard (8

i'm really happy with my black lace designed vans *drools. only spent $60 on it from $80 or something.

love love love everything. ^____^

i was always a fan of thigh high socks and stocking/tights design type of thing.

it's my style i guess. shorts + thigh highs + boots = happy abbey (:

so i went a little nuts haha!

my delivery arrives in like a week or so, so excited!

ahhhh thank you for the blessing God!

love from abbey.

new people. new friends.

i met a few new work mates. and they were telling me about themselves and their background stories of their life.. and the stuff they were still going through.. man. i can't even.
and if i put everything i went through in perspective and compared to them.. that everything that i'm feeling and going through.. just seemed so freaking petty and pathetic.

and yet they smiled the way they did. in a way that was happier then me. just complete joy.
they were kind hearted, smiled at me and encouraged me, saying "you can't let your past stop you from having a future"

i wanted to cry.

to my new friend.
i admire you. i admire your heart and your strength. please guide me and teach me your way of living.


love from abbey.

i can't even.

"being alone is better than being with the wrong person"

i never gave it much thought.
but it's true.
i need this time alone. i need to see myself.
i need to realise that you really weren't the one.
you were wrong for me.
because if you were right.
you wouldn't have broken and hurt me the way you did.
you would've protected and kept my heart safe.
you would be here right now.
and yet here we are. you became the wrong person for me in the end.

thank you for helping me save myself.


love from abbey.

p.s even before all this. i thought at some point. you were the right person. 

honestly.

i'm actually not really good at being single.
it's not because i can't stand it or i'm one of those people that keep dating one after the other.
i'm just good at being in a couple. i like being in a couple.
committing to one person, talking to them about their day and mine, shopping with them, doing life,  sharing memories and experiences.. and loving them unconditionally.
i'm one of those people that like to love and share my life.
is this wrong? is this normal?

but i guess for now.
i need to start loving myself more. i should start loving myself. putting myself first sometimes.
i need to be able to guard my own heart, from people that take my love for granted.
where do i even start?..


as usual
love from abbey.

and so it begins.

hello i'm abigail corpuz.
i'm just a twenty year old dreaming bigger, trusting steadily, hoping unswervingly and loving extravagantly.

there are a fair few reasons i'm here. one of which is to have a place to myself.
but the main reasons are to document my life, give my little nugget of thoughts and to share my heart's desire.

and as cheesy as this is about to sound. i'm actually in search of something. aren't we all?

hope you enjoy and join me.


love from abbey